Author: Diana Brandmeyer

I’ve realized that fear doesn’t always happen quickly. The adrenaline rush doesn’t always occur. I’ve let fit creep into my life ilike and invasive weed. It has to stop. I’ve allowed the evilness of it to control my every move in the past two years. I’m turning this over to God. Right now. I know He is the only one who can eliminate this nasty nightmare from my life.

IF I let Him.

And that’s the problem. I like control. That free will gets me into trouble because I’m so sure I can fix this by myself, after all it’s how I got here right? Allowing myself to be afraid to do small things like drive on a highway. Now to be fair to myself there is a reason I am afraid but the odds are it won’t happen again. And I did survive it. I should be happy not fearful. So far I’m the only person I know other than my husband who was with me at the time to be stuck in trafic no where to go as police cars skidded, slammed and slid past us on thier mission to stop a criminal. Guns were pulled, shots fired at tires, sparks were flying past my window, of course I was scared, anyone would be. But why have I allowed it to keep me from living my life? I don’t know. So I’m going to hold onto these verses from Proverbs 3:25-26 (NIV) Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared.

God works when I allow Him access to my life. I stumbled on this verse yesterday while searching for scriptures for my new book. The bible is huge and yet this is the verse I discovered.

Since Sunday I’ve been thinking about the service. Normally, I’m a contemporary worshiper but this Sunday we sang Blessed Assurance and I’ve been singing it all week. I had forgotten how much that song meant to me through my teenage years. I think it needs to become my new internal theme song. There is one line, okay more than one that really touched my heart.

Perfect sumission perfect delight,
Visions of rapture now burst on my sight
Angels descending bring from above
Echoes of mercy whispers of love.

I needed to hear that without His Son there would be no mercy for me. I’m thankful to God He loved me enough to save me.

This might be the answer to keeping up with my blog! Yay! I found this cool add on program for firefox that helps me post.
It’s hot here! Our backyard pool is still green so we won’t be swimming this weekend. We bought the pool when our boys were younger and they enjoyed it. But now almost everyone is living somewhere else, except the youngest who is only home during prime swimming time. He doesn’t seem to be around when it’s time to work on the pool. Odd isn’t it? Love you Josh.

Still no buyers for our ‘tuition’ house. I’m hoping after the fourth of July, people will be more interested in finding a new home. Or maybe I’ll reconsider selling our home and moving into that one. At least everything is updated and clean there! I’m working on cleaning this one now. It’s amazing how fast things can get out of control when you’re tired.

On writing:
I’m using writer’s blocks 3 and Karen Wiesner’s book First Draft to get my next book ready. I’m on day two. 🙂 I’m also getting another proposal ready to send out so my time is filling up fast. I thought I would have lots of free time now that I’ve finished most of my hard labor on the tuition house. 🙂 Lesson learned: there will always be work to fill up the empty time IF you are willing to do it.

Snowflakes! What a wonderful gift to find in the morning sky! I love snow this time of year. After Christmas I don’t want to see it for a long time. But that’s another post. Today I’m happy and singing Christmas carols. Yes, CHRISTmas carols, not holiday songs.

I’m saddened by news my son told me yesterday. Boston has decided their Capitol Christmas tree must be called a Holiday Tree. The city now has Holiday Tree Lots.
I guess that will work out just fine if they want to leave the tree up for the rest of the year, think of the money it could save in decorations. It could work for Valentines Day, Easter, Fourth of July, all they would have to do is change the color of the lights.

Well, this family will never have a holiday tree. Our house will serve the Lord and we will proudly display our Christmas tree to celebrate the birth of our Savior.

D-day, deadline day did I make it? YES! I actually finished the rewrite and emailed it my agent yesterday. Now the wait begins. I’m taking a week off to do things I’ve let go, like cleaning and grocery shopping, and then I’m going to start drafting my next book.

I’m still using Karen’s book First Draft in 30 Days and I’m actually ahead! Not by much but one day ahead! Thanks Karen. One thing having a calendar has done for me is give me more time. That sounds odd but I would spend the entire day at my computer working or thinking about it or emailing friends. In my heart I felt I couldn’t leave because there was still writing to be done. Having a calendar gives me a goal to reach each day and when it’s reached Yahoo! I can run to my sewing room and quilt. Or maybe since it’s warm outdoors I’ll take my book to the front porch and snuggle in my swing while I read. My husband’s glad as well because now I seem to have time to catch one or two shows on the food channel a week which means new meals for him to try.

Reverence for God adds hours to each day. Proverbs 10:27
So by respecting the gift God has given me to use I plan how to accomplish the tasks for the day. Then I’m rewarded by the blessing of time. Thanks God!
Diana